Yes, I’m a Follower of Christ… and Yes, I Still Struggle.
A message for the girl who’s trying to stay faithful and heal at the same time.
Let me just say it straight—
I’m a follower of Christ. I love God. I pray. I worship. I read my Bible.
And I still struggle.
I still have days where I question if I’m really qualified to be used by God.
I still slip into overthinking, anxiety, and self-doubt.
I still battle temptations, triggers, and tiredness that make me want to give up, shut down, or go ghost on everybody (including God).
But guess what?
That doesn’t make me less of a believer. That just makes me real.
Here’s the truth that religion rarely gives us space to admit:
You can be fully committed to Christ and still in process.
You can be faithful and flawed.
Anointed and healing.
Broken and still deeply, wildly loved by God.
People love to act like salvation comes with instant deliverance and a perfect spiritual record. Sis… nah. If anything, the closer I get to God, the more layers He lovingly starts to peel back. And whew—those layers be heavy.
What do I struggle with? Let’s keep it real:
Feeling like I’m not “good enough” for God to use
Comparing my spiritual journey to someone else’s highlight reel
Trusting His timing when everything in me wants to rush the process
Wanting to be seen but also hiding because I’m scared to be misunderstood
Letting go of control (Lord, help me with this one daily)
Thinking I need to be perfect in order to be effective
The list could go on. But here’s what I’ve learned in the tension:
God is not surprised by my struggle. He’s not intimidated by my weakness. He’s not walking away because I didn’t “get it right” today.
He sees me. And He still calls me His.
That’s the kind of grace we don’t talk about enough.
The kind that sits with you in your shame and says, “Let’s try again tomorrow.”
The kind that walks with you through the process and whispers, “I’m still here.”
So no—I’m not perfect. But I’m present.
I’m not always strong. But I’m surrendered.
And even when I fall short, I keep showing up. I keep leaning in. I keep choosing Jesus—because He never stops choosing me.
If you’re reading this and you’ve been feeling like you’re the only one who’s struggling… you’re not.
You’re not disqualified.
You’re not behind.
You’re not a failure.
You’re just in the middle of your healing. And that’s holy ground.
Let them think whatever they want to think.
They didn’t save you.
They don’t carry you.
They don’t get the final say. God does.
So fix your crown, sis.
Breathe.
Cry if you need to.
Repent. Rest. Reset.
But don’t stop.
You’re still His. And He’s not done with you yet.
Want to go deeper?
Download the “Keep Going Sis” prayer card set or journal through our “Still His” devotional in the Healing Hub. You’re not alone in this. We walk this thing out together—faithfully, imperfectly, and hand-in-hand with grace.
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